So, for those of you who are unaware, I play Shiki Misaki from The World Ends With You over at Paradisa on DreamWidth. And Paradisa is awesome. The only RP comm I’ve been in longer than this one is Phoenix Wright’s Dressing Room back in the LJ days, and I only stopped being there because the comm overall died.

And Paradisa is amazing. I love the setup, the plots that occur, the situations that characters can get into all on their own. But, more than anything else, I love the people there, and all of Shiki’s friends.

The thing is, nearly all of Shiki’s friends have left. Just a few months ago, when I posted with her, you could be sure that each post would hit at least 50 comments, and would have some pretty significant threads. Now? I just made a major post with her about a week and a half ago, and I didn’t get a single response. Not one. Because nearly all of her friends are gone.

Now, there are still a couple left. Aradia, Gold, Phoenix, Maya, and Peeta… and then she’s on decent terms with some of the rest of the Homestuck cast after having, you know, dated Equius.

But that’s it. And Shiki is super depressed since, you know, all of her friends are gone now. And she hasn’t had any canon castmates for a long, long while now. And I don’t know what to do with her. I don’t know how to deal with her being so sad all of the time, and how to make it, you know, not static. I don’t know how to get her to have a new cast of friends, since her entire circle of friends vanished. And I’m not sure it’s entirely worth keeping her there.

I love playing Shiki. She’s one of my favorite characters in anything ever, and I just feel her voice so perfectly, and I love having her in the Paradisa setting. But I just don’t know what to do with her anymore.

I also don’t want to drop Paradisa, but so many of my favorite muns have left with their characters, I’m not totally sure who I’d have CR with, either. Paradisa is the game that got me back into RP when I was sure that I was done with it forever. Even if the guy who got me into Paradisa has since decided that I am simply not worth his friendship, it’s still an amazing game. The thing is, I can’t bring in a second character and try to balance the amount of CR that I want with that. I am very well aware that I can only keep up with one character in any RP at any given time. So that’s not really a thing that would work.

So I just. Don’t know what to do. Do I keep Shiki on, and just try getting her more CR? Do I drop Shiki, and app with someone new? Or do I just drop the game entirely? After all, as much as I love it, if the people I particularly loved it for aren’t there anymore, is it really the same game for me?

I dunno, man. I got nothing. If you have any ideas, please, please throw them at me! I’m still on hiatus until after AnimeNEXT, and I’ll probably keep Shiki for a little bit, at least for now, but I’m in the process of trying to decide… even though I love the game and the character, is it just time to bow out with grace? Or should I hang on and see what else can happen?